Baby M is notorious, at 18 months of age, he knows 18 different ways to fall and hurt himself. Not a day goes by, when my heart stops for a second because of the Baby M tricks. He would walk be walking straight and suddenly I would hear a cry, cause he is on the floor!
I have never disclosed it to anyone but one of my scariest dream since the M was born has been he has falls and hurts himself. As a new mother, I had a horrible dream one night that I accidentally drop him on the floor from my lap. He gives a feeble smile and then his eyes shut. I remember waking up sweating profusely, hugging the child sleeping next to me and crying silently till tears were dried by my pillow. Scary isn’t it?
For a long time, after that I was afraid to give him to anyone or to carry him around myself too. I would sit holding him on the bed and never leave his aside. It took sometime for me to overcome my fear. Once, he started talking steps, I had to let him go and explore the world on his own.
We had the baby corner set in the room on a floor bedding with all his toys kept there. And, he would sometimes roll off the bedding onto the floor. He slowly learnt to stay off the edge. Even today, he would stand on the bed, come to the corner and pretend to jump. He would smile at me with a sprinkle of mischief in his eyes, but never jump.
With time, I have learnt my lesson and do not stress much when he plays. I teach him to be careful by mimicking safe and unsafe actions. And, I got to have faith that even a cat’s got nine lives to live in a lifetime. 🙂
Are you scared for your kids? Do you ever stop fearing when the kids grow up? I would love to hear from you in the comments.
This is my post for day 3 in the #AtoZChallenge. You can read my last post here.